Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Hiatus=OVER!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Grover
No, it was their dog, Grover. From a distance, the jack russell terrier was almost cute, a little bundle of white, bristly fur with a big brown spot on one side. His tail wagged perpetually, and his open mouth curled almost into a smile. But up close, the neighbors all knew that there was a strange glint in the dog's eyes, and his adorable outward appearance didn't entirely cover the uneasy feeling they got when his gaze met with their own. The Ekhart's thought they were all crazy, of course. They loved their little Grover more than anything else in the world.
The Ekhart's house was nestled into a small cul-de-sac at the top of a hill. The access road sloped down through a row of young elm trees before meeting with the busy street below. The traffic light defaulted to the main street, changing only when a car passed over a sensor at the end of the quiet road. Because of this constant cross traffic, the Ekharts tried to be vigilant in keeping Grover securely leashed when they let him into the front yard. They didn't want him to run off, or -- God forbid -- dash in front of a speeding vehicle. There was also a chain-link fence surrounding their property, but the little dog had long since learned to escape this obstacle, though the Ekharts never could figure out how. More than once, one of the neighbors had rung the doorbell and delivered Grover, tail wagging, leash trailing behind, back to the Ekharts after a daring escape. Every time, the neighbor would tell them that they found him sitting at the top of the hill, head cocked to one side, staring down at the traffic rushing past. The Ekharts would thank them profusely for saving Grover from harm, although often got the impression that they were less concerned with the safety of the dog than with the safety of the cars in the street below.
One day, Mrs. Ekhart returned from her errands with two new toys: a big, shiny red firetruck for Robert, and a big, shiny red rubber ball for Grover. Both the boy and the dog danced about with glee at their new gifts. Robert dropped to the ground and began to drive his truck from room to room, shrieking with renewed vigor at the top of his lungs. Grover followed right behind, pushing and kicking his ball as he was unable to grasp it in his small, smiling mouth. Once or twice, he accidentally got the ball to bounce, which seemed to delight him to no end. He played with the ball for hours, kicking and bouncing, and then trying to bounce it higher and higher. The Ekharts laughed as they watched him, his little tail whipping about like a propeller.
Around five o'clock Mrs. Ekhart began to prepare dinner. Almost at once, the red rubber ball bounced onto the counter and into the sink where she was peeling potatoes. She chuckled at the little rascal, and then put Grover and the ball out into the front yard so she could cook uninterrupted. She secured his leash to the tent stake in the middle of the yard, scratched Grover behind the ear, and returned to the house.
Grover watched the retreating figure of his owner as it passed into the house. He waited for a moment, watching as the door closed behind her, and then looked at the tent stake. He grasped the protruding end between his teeth and pulled it straight out the earth with a practiced movement. He shook the leash free and deftly replaced the stake into the ground, sliding it gingerly back into its hole. Then he turned his attention to the ball.
It was exactly what he had been waiting for all these months. The perfect toy; the perfect tool. He began to kick and bounce the ball, nudging it higher and higher into the air, until with one final leap he shot the ball, silhouetted for a moment against the late afternoon sun, off his nose and right over the chain-link fence. It swished gently into the hedge on the other side, sliding quietly through the leaves. He stared at it for a moment, then trotted to a small bush in the corner of the yard. He pulled at a loose scrap of Mr. Ekhart's sculpting metal, something corrugated and innocuous, and dove stealthily into the small tunnel hidden beneath. He appeared a moment later under the hedge on the other side, shaking the dirt from his fur, and glanced around. He located the ball, perched in the branches just above him, and carefully nuzzled it free. He looked right, then left; satisfied, he batted it cautiously into the empty road. He ran after it and, with mounting excitement, bounced it once, twice, three times into the air, nudging it ever forward. Then, abruptly, he stopped.
The dog sat down and watched as the ball bounced down the hill, gaining momentum every time it flexed and recoiled on the sloping concrete. He saw the glint of the sun on the red rubber, and also on the hard metal frames of those monstrous vehicles rushing through the intersection below. He panted, tongue waggling, waiting patiently for the inevitable.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Just a note
In Response -
I fooled around with the CSS file and widened the margins for the text space, so in theory we won't have this problem again. Anything that you see in the post editor dialogue box should now appear on the blog exactly as formatted. If it happens again, I'll tweak it again...
-t
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Explosion: Implosion
RUN
Run
As far and as fast as you can towards treasure at rainbows ends or
Golden discord apples thrown through forest umber shadows, down rabbit holes
Where Alice lost and found and lost and found and dreamed acid looking glass dreams
Of smoke swirling up colliding with ceiling fans which fling strands wedding-rice-like
Not towards something, but away from this stagnant pool under lilies the water dies
Like echoes in canyons (poor Echo, I weep for her and she is ungrateful, returning
My tears mocking while the ghosts of lever leapt smile, thinking the stones
Have learned to cry)
Run
Fast and grab something, anything sharp to rend reality's fabric or
Take nothing but the shattered splattered sunlight in your cacophonous jungle hair
And the stubborn sand that stains the soles of your beach dancing bare feet in summer
Hopeful where the unknown beckons tripping skipping slipping you follow
Incongruous footprints trailing behind you like ants with green leaf sails drifting across
Dusty seas boats follow the ends of the earth (Sinking below the horizon
I almost remember when the world was a disc and beyond the harlot rouged waters.
There are dragons)
Run
Into fields of thunder and lightening naked to feel rain lashes on skin or
Stripped to nothing hoping electric amber sky light strikes and singes to illuminate
You like manuscripts where beasts make lovers of women and flowers woven
Into virginal bouquets thrown to the hopeful then tossed penitently into graves covered
By Adam's dust watered by river Lethe waters that glimmer gifts of souls ans
Coins from dead eyes (And I wonder if the payment for eternity has increased over time,
paired coins no longer promises enough and must we pay in gold ingots, or will
Voided checks suffice)
Run
Chastely passed through death and returned, transcending sin or
Never return at all stay lost weaving endlessly through warp and woof, spaces between
Crowds of strangers stare blankly reflecting time like mirrors in empty houses reflect
Dust spinning in moon light streams through fractured fractal windows curtains blowing
Sudden breezes sweep salt across abandoned floors like so many old receipts
Pasted in scrapbooks (carefully kept, but my lover deserted me anyways, leaving gentle
Paper trail traces of each movie concert play meal intertwined mementos, but
I don't remember)
Run
You can call me Eurydice shout it out or
Whisper the wind steals the words away
You won't look back
You promise
And I won't follow
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Cages: Compiled
Eyes shining you offer me a hand, lifting me through mire of my own making
Spirals inside rage self-righteous, you lead me to a white-washed wall
Draw a door
Draw a door.Let me turn the handle. Myself. Push through.
Where does it lead?
Only as far as your mind can reach.
The unknown beckons.
Where does it lead?
Who can say, but if you lead the way
I'll follow after you
To depths not often known.
Who can say, but if you lead the way
Who knows what dreams may come?
A future open wide
Why do we open doors?
"You can be. Anyone. Do anything."
To prove your point, you built me a glass ceiling
Then shattered it, so I would be free
Laughing crystal slivers rain,
Laughing crystal slivers rain, crown me in glitter petal shards.crown me in glitter petal shards.
run fast and grab something, anything
sharp.
Quick, before I envelope such fractured light. In trying to heal, I poke and cut.
With eyes Magnified I cannot stop to find the problems as the crystalline seeds blossom
into seventeen perfect replicas of your left iris--Dark, and filled with swallowed possibilities.
Ferocious stranger of mine, dissolving into resonances,
and shimmering with offset oscillations,
you have left in me a piece of you.
But are you a hornet, or a bumble bee.
or a simply crafted wooden sculpture, being torn apart by termites.
Distant and safe you watch.
I parody St. Sebastian,
I parody St. Sebastian,drip liquid rubies.
climbing high among the boughs and limbs,
and hands of good people—
you whom I have known and changed
and loved, and brushed my fingers
past your faces that you may
know the stars again,
and speak to the ringing of halos
that flutter
past your once imprisoned eyes.
I dance through the veins of town,
las vías de las villas españolas,
I weave a ribbon through your windows
a mosaic of punctured names
scattered one by one across the catacombs;
I wave away Apollo's blackened hand,
and march with your sons
and daughters
into the fields of thunder and lighting.
And from these branches
through swollen slits of light
I watch
as archers lift up their bows,As archers lift up their bows,pull taught their strings, and sing
arrows do nothing:
The emperors club kills me.
the strains of violins, (each note
pierces with its graceful flight);
With every breath I know
the music is for me, and I
drip liquid rubies.
I gave you my heart, I suppose.
I gave you my heart, I suppose.You gave me wings, you said.
I did not know
You would want me to come and pick it up
When you were done with it.
I did not know
You would be so careless,
Leaving it here and there, dog-earing it,
Often forgetting you had it.
I had this shy notion
Of you keeping it safe and warm
Nestled close beneath the covers.
You grew tired of it;
You moved on.
You threw out the trash,
Almost tossed it away
Like so many old receipts.
Yet when I stood there in your room
Your back to me, your attention elsewhere:
I did not want it back.
It was more yours than mine.
Sewed my butterfly chest together with
I've sewed my butterfly chest all togetherDark criss-crossed child crayons
with straps made entirely of soup-stewed shoe leather
butterfly patches and butterfly stitches
the scars are still burning, the rotten flesh itches
To creak my neck forward sends head-spinning pain
through cold coils of copper I've hooked in my brain
I look down my body through eyes dried and wired
and electrically flex muscles long since expired
One leg's from a dead man; one leg is a wheel.
I've a cranial disc made of thrice-folded steel.
I've no nose to speak of, but that's just as well,
since I'm made of cadavers I've no wish to smell.
A mortal no longer, I've shed my old skin
passed through death and returned, transcending my sins
the police, when they killed me, my spirit unfettered
and thus I return, all the stronger and better.
I lurch down the stairs, my sucking chest heaving
to wish all the village a... memorable evening.
"I have given you wings. Fly"
My breast, empty. My wings, fluttering, fettered.
No one hears a heart when it breaks.
In silence, a storm.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
My Heart
Disclaimer - This poem draws from the last poem that I contributed, which in turn was taken from Karen's. However, it is removed enough that I gave it a new title, with lack of better category.
This is about my heart,
But not – NOT about Love,
Rather that fist-sized, spongy bag
That beats and beats me alive.
Tha-thump tha-thump.
It’s irregular, my heartbeat.
Sometimes it’s running along
And then it trips on its own feet-
All of a sudden, nothing:
Tha-thump, tha-…
This is a matter that conerns me
Why stop? Do you need a rest,
Oh driving beat that keeps me going?
Why stop? No lurch inside my chest
And then…
-thump
Not dead yet.
It makes me wonder:
How many beats must you miss
Before you are dead?
Two? Four? Six?
How do I know it will ever start again?
And what defines a “stopped” heart?
Hearts can’t just stop all on their own,
That’s bullcrap. One must have a part
In keeping it going.
One must not take it for granted.
Yet it's so easy to ignore.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
John and Sara, Part 3
Char, his parents noted, enjoyed having the dog all to himself. They spent their afternoons together in Char’s room or the backyard playhouse. Before school, Sara would check Char’s backpack to ensure he did not try to bring Flu to class again. Whenever Char sat--at meals, while watching television, reading in the living room--Flu was in his lap. John had noticed, as he tucked Char in one night, that Flu had taken to nestling himself inside the hollow of the boy’s detached leg prosthesis. It was turning into an unhealthy relationship, he and Sara agreed as they folded sheets. But the boy needed a friend, didn’t he?
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
John and Sara... Con't.
Flu was a mutt that the family had found in the park across the street from their house one night after dinner. They'd gone for a walk at 7:30pm after dinner had been eaten, the dishes had been washed, and the family was digesting. Beneath the bleachers surrounding the field that Caitlin played soccer on, a soft whimper had been sounding. After some coaxing, John had managed to reveal a bloody and limping puppy. John had quickly pulled off his sweater, wrapped the crippled canine in his cardigan, and the family had rushed to the vet's office.
Flu had come to live with the family after no owner could be found, and to this day, he had not grown to weigh over 5lbs. His miniature size was what designated him as 1/3 of a dog, but his attitude was far from miniscule. Char and Flu were seldom seen apart, and Flu was violently protective of the young lad.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
John and Sara
But it was hard to live up to the standards of the average, middle-class life style. John worked as the manager of a retail electronics business, though he was often putting in overtime hours to make sure he got enough money squared away every month. Sara was always a little bit frantic, making sure their kids got to school, got to sports practices, got to their doctors' appointments. It was a real challenge to get dinner ready on time every day, and that it was something that would satisfy everyone. They made the best of it of course, and they went to bed every night with a smile — albeit a strained one — knowing that they had done their duties as parents, and done them well. Still, it was hard.
A lot of it, they conceded one night, talking softly as they changed into their pajamas, stemmed from their children. As an average family of average means, it was difficult to raise their children. Quite frankly, they didn't know how other people did it. And it wasn't even their two oldest children, (they noted over the bathroom sink as they brushed and flossed their teeth), it was their "point five."
Tommy and Caitlin were great, actually. They got decent marks in school; they were well-liked on their respective baseball and soccer teams; they were responsible and polite, if not altogether clean and self-sufficient. No, it was their youngest, Char, who took up the vast majority of their parental efforts.
They paused, a momentary shadow of uncomfortable guilt passing over them both as they rinsed with Cool Mint mouthwash. His name, according to his birth certificate, was Charles, but he had insisted on being called "Char" since he was able to speak. His full name wasn't him, he said. It didn't fit his personality, his life. And so he cut it in half, so to speak, and refused to go by anything else. He was that kind of kid — stubborn and strong-willed.
It wasn't his fault, (they admitted as they kicked off their slippers and climbed into bed); there was nothing to be helped. He grew up in a world where he was supposed to be part of an average family, only he couldn't ever really live up to the expectations. He tried to join Tommy's baseball league, but with only one arm he couldn't wear a glove without making it impossible to throw. He tried to join Caitlin's soccer league, but with only one leg he couldn't keep up with the other children, let alone kick the ball without risking falling down and hurting himself. They had even tried a table tennis league, which required only one hand and limited movement, but with only one eye and the resulting depth-perception issues, he could never manage to get the ball over the net.
It was also a shock to John and Sara both, (they finally admitted as they set their separate alarm clocks on their separate night stands), when they learned that the average American family does not, in fact, have to deal with these issues. That all of the articles they had read talking about families having "two-point-five children" were describing the average number of children over a wide sample base, and that the average family had either two or three. Very few, if any, have half a child.
But despite all this, (they concluded, heads resting on their pillows, facing each other in the dark), they had done well as parents. Or at least, they had done the best that could be expected of them. And who could ask for more?
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Cages VI
with straps made entirely of soup-stewed shoe leather
butterfly patches and butterfly stitches
the scars are still burning, the rotten flesh itches
To creak my neck forward sends head-spinning pain
through cold coils of copper I've hooked in my brain
I look down my body through eyes dried and wired
and electrically flex muscles long since expired
One leg's from a dead man; one leg is a wheel.
I've a cranial disc made of thrice-folded steel.
I've no nose to speak of, but that's just as well,
since I'm made of cadavers I've no wish to smell.
A mortal no longer, I've shed my old skin
passed through death and returned, transcending my sins
the police, when they killed me, my spirit unfettered
and thus I return, all the stronger and better.
I lurch down the stairs, my sucking chest heaving
to wish all the village a... memorable evening.